&& i found it. that paradise.

I’m dead. I’m seriously dead. I got seria-usly low for both math and science. This recent common test, I got a 15/25 for science, 38.5/50 for math. And both my mum and dad were stunned by my results, they went like, “WHAT?”. I am seriously stressed. And I’m not sure what my pop and his wife will do if I like kinda just scraped thru my exams or flunk them. I mean even if I get really disappointing marks, I will be disappointed too, right? Yeah, but since primary school, I have always been everyone’s best friend and good little girl. Sigh, so I guess, they already have the mindset that I will do well for each and every exam. Well well, I hope they won’t get a shock when I get my results too, well, at least I hope I won’t score so badly lah, so I guess I have to work hard and really study and revise since I’ve already forgotten most of the things, like bases and stuff. I HATE studying. Yeeeee. Most people think I love studying, am a good girl who has no life, yak yak yak and so on. But whatever, I guess everyone who is related to me by blood think that way… sigh. Can I ever live with peace, being myself, because I’m always the girl who’s always having to live up to other’s expectations. I’m sick of it. I don’t even think I should be in dhs. I mean, do I look like those who would go to dhs? Yes for my relatives, no for my friends. Serious. But I guess, all my relatives thinks that way, because I’m not very close with any of them, none, not as in close in a friend like way, where, I can be myself, instead of another. I should have gone to cedar or st nicks! But whatever. I think, with a little more of this, I’m going mad. My relatives think that way of me cause I’ve been like that all my life, at least, since young. I hate it. At least, I think they are nice people, but there’s nobody my age, nobody to talk to. So sometimes, I dread going to my grandma’s house. Yak yak yak, they go on and on. Ok, back to the point of my results. I’m okay with math, but quite angey, cause I got at least 7 marks worth of careless mistakes. But I’m angry and pissed at science, cause fer that 7 marks q, I missed one step and the whole thing below was wrong. ECF. I got 2 marks fer that. WOW. Whatever. I got to go to study and yak yak yak. ciao.
p.s. i'm gonna be myself.

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I'm Pamela, 14 years old, living in the sunny beautiful island of Singapore. I'm Asian, tanned and a volleyballer. I love shopping, slacking and reading. I prefer to think myself to be an optimist. I'm a bit of a blur queen, late queen and drama queen. And i appreciate the finer things in life. My birthday is on the 23rd May 1992. You really better remember it.