&& i found it. that paradise.

hello people. it's been long isn't it? since i posted here. my thoughts and everything. oh wells. i have been so so so busy. but now i'm back! for good! isn't that greatt??? so wonderful.

im really back because i find blogger MUCH less problematic and faster to use. so instead of blogging in there, i mighta as well blog in here. charme shall be my site with site updates and design and stuff. but this will be my blog. me-andyou will stay my blog! forever yeah! if thats possible of cos. but i think it will! ^^

i put on an amazing five kg. i cant believe it. really. im being most honest. this is my blog i say what i want and i will be honest. FIVE kg, i never hit above 47 kg. gosh. but im not obese or fat at all la. im like 90%. freakk. what is wrong with me. really. i grew like 1.5 cm only! weeps. i thought i grew to 164 already. why am i growing so slowly in terms of height and like literally exploding in terms of weight!?! unfairness. when i saw the weighing scale i squinted right on the scale and said "oh my god. im 50kg" then ms tan loook at me and said "you put on 5 kg?" then im like "oh my god, ya"!!! this is BAD. but like almost everybody in class put on weight, besides a pathetic few who actually managed to lose weight. weird la.

today's training was bah. shiying was practically head butting everybody's breasts. like she gets her victimes from the volleyball club. shes mad. her victim today was then MELISSA. poor melissa. i haven kena yet. lucky me. today yixian and kystal came back to visit. the tj uniform is so ugly. its like dirty phlegmy green. like a really gross colour. i dont understand how they actually wear that uniform. its horrid. its pathetic. although i really kinda dont like our school and its uniform, it really isnt as bad as TJ's. gosh. what a stupid school who ostracise people and have ugly uniforms. apeshit.

lushikoh outing is this coming tues. im so happy. i cant wait. just like su said, we are so evil, so full of evil. haha. actually im the nice one among the three you know. its SU and HIl who are REALLY evil. they blame it all on me, those two. see? they are truely the evil ones. don see hil ah, so innocent and fair and cute, but actually she also very evil de. su no need to see la. one look and you know shes the evil-est. so naturally, im the nicest. i mean just look at me! what evil do you see? literally none, im honest, honest.

i cant publish my site using frontpage until now. i mean from just now until now. whats their effing problem. dumb system.

life science test didnt seem as easy -.-" think i didnt do that well. math common test and chinese test and ting xie and projects and homework are all cramming me up like hell. what a stupid school. i want to go hogwarts like hell. i would give almost anything to get into that school. i read half blood prince again. didnt cry this time. hah. i love harry. fleur's name is nicee. fleur. fleur. fleur. fleur. fleur!!

bev just sent me some pics that i took with her. i look so horribly distorted and ugly and maybe a little act cute. gosh. i cant stand myself. sometimes i cant help but AGREE WITH XIAXUE. like fuck natural beauty. all that stupid natural beauty talks they give, like almost every woman on this earth, in a right frame of mind, wants to look better. so they put make up, and by doing so, its not natural beauty anymore. if you use adobe photoshop to in any way, try to hide your flaws, you are also a piece of fake beauty. if you are so supportive of natural beauty, then tell me in the face that you wil not put any make up all your life for beauty purposes. not at all. not even when you get married, which you probably wont. and dont paint your nails. dont exercise to keep your figure in shape. grow lumps of fat that just stay all over your body, you tummy, arms, and fat butts. and just sleep like a pig all day. if you are able to do all that, then go campaign for natural beauty. im sure women all over the world would flock to see your shapely figure and support you man. go ahead. loser.

so you see. im actually quite honest. ah. and a lot of people know who my mortal is le. so not fun. not not not fun. sigh. what should i get ahhh. so busy la. must buy presents for a lot of people. siewting and mortal and angel. and sunday still got bbq.

loong post la. so fun. haven posted it a while. this is to make up for itl. comment by tagging until comment system is up.

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I'm Pamela, 14 years old, living in the sunny beautiful island of Singapore. I'm Asian, tanned and a volleyballer. I love shopping, slacking and reading. I prefer to think myself to be an optimist. I'm a bit of a blur queen, late queen and drama queen. And i appreciate the finer things in life. My birthday is on the 23rd May 1992. You really better remember it.