&& i found it. that paradise.

i had an extremely horrible dream last night. i was so scared. i think i can almost burst into tears. and i am not joking. it felt so real. it wasnt even like a magic-ky kinda scary dream, it was like a real life scary dream. it was really bad. i can cry. please dont let dreams come true. i dont know what ill do. really. and dont let this dream come to me anymore. please get away from me.

i feel too not-in-the-mood to blog about today's stuff. let me just say. i went to rachel house to do math sculpture and i came back and did my best to study. i hate it. i hate to study. theres still a math test tmr, right on first period. my life is like, the midst of an overcrowded mrt train, an accident occurs. the train stops, my life pauses. then i witness this gruesome accident, and i cant move, theres too many people. people are frantic. and im at a loss of what to do.

and suddenly, it feels so wrong. my life is really in a mess.

i dont even know if i can get into triple science. in dunman high at least. i haven been doing very well, like in any subject. its killing me.

please put my life back into place. where it was all nice and safe? where i could go to sleep peacefully, without the bad dreams. without the troubles, where i dont have to fret. and worry. i cant take it all. or at least, let me be strong, strong enough to take all that on.

please.

♥ Hello.
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I'm Pamela, 14 years old, living in the sunny beautiful island of Singapore. I'm Asian, tanned and a volleyballer. I love shopping, slacking and reading. I prefer to think myself to be an optimist. I'm a bit of a blur queen, late queen and drama queen. And i appreciate the finer things in life. My birthday is on the 23rd May 1992. You really better remember it.