&& i found it. that paradise.

i feel a sudden urge to delete all my webspaces. i don't know. i feel like im losing the interest, the touch of the computer. it doesnt hold anything for me at all as it sort of used to. like its not indispensable anymore, not like it was indispensable, just that, even after the exams are over, i dont even feel like using the computer and tidy up CHARME.

its in a pathetic state i know. i want to delete it already. its dumb and dusty and i cant be bothered to clear it up. its like a webspace that is dead. and im too lazy to clear it up. maybe.

maybe i'm just over the webspace and domains thingy, like everybody is dort of having a webspace thats why im blogging and doing such stuff. maybe i was a noob at first and i hardly knew anything, hardly, and now i know how it works, and so, the novelty has worn off me. i may be just too lazy or maybe im too fed up with my life that i cant be bothered. even though i dont know why im fed up with my life. cos, my parents arent divorced, im not sickly, im not terrible looking etc. my life is kinda mediocre. even though i hate to admit. people may not ssay it all and stuff. but behind that facade, isnt it what it is all abt?

pretense. thats all it is.

even in school, like everyone is pretending, sometimes with relatives, with family. i have to pretend like i could do it, even when i was unsure. i dont want the weekend to end, cos ill have to play interclass, school starts formally, results will come out. im likely to fail. and the chances of 2I winning interclass, its very very low. cos we dont even play possesion. this sucks.

vball training sucked, the last i meant. i wasnt feeling very well, i played like shit. now thinking abt it, i wonder if i chose the wrong CCA. maybe. probably. i really dont want to think abt it. but i guess i cant really help it eh.

i watched zhing ji yi ban already. i love fahrenhait. :)) they are the best boy band, chinese, ever. even better than F4. i think i might actually buy their album. ^^ yay yay.

im too lazy to type any longer cos i want to watch fei lun hai on youtube. they are quite cute actually. i actually like jiro a bit more now. heh.

♥ Hello.
This is my blog. my personal space, no designs no nothing. just my blog.
All my other stuff are at WithLove, it's my portfolio.
There's no rules. Let me be me. I don't have to explain whatever that i do or say in here.
It's not exactly the greatest blog ever which has happy endings all the time, it's just a little online diary where i gather certain bits and pieces of my life
Click alt-F4 if you are unhappy. I don't need you here, dampening my mood.

I'm Pamela, 14 years old, living in the sunny beautiful island of Singapore. I'm Asian, tanned and a volleyballer. I love shopping, slacking and reading. I prefer to think myself to be an optimist. I'm a bit of a blur queen, late queen and drama queen. And i appreciate the finer things in life. My birthday is on the 23rd May 1992. You really better remember it.